angels and girlfriends.'i'm very interested in people,but people drain me.'
which is quite true.people don't follow the law of conservation of energy,where energy is never lost but transferred.that was just random.baahs.
finally home early and nothing to blog.shall just be random.
it's funny how first impressions really count.i guess first impressions leave the deepest imprint on one's mind.that was the way i went into school.everything seemed nice and perfect and happy.but then.i stayed long enough to see the cracks in the walls.the places where little flaws started emerging out of those cracks.and i couldn't believe what i was seeing because i thought everything was flawless.it turns out nobody can hide their imperfections,and they really do show with time.i'm tired of going to school everyday and seeing those flaws,the internal struggles,the politics.i'm tired of just struggling through one pathetic day of school,coming home and toppling onto bed from the sheer strength it takes to smile beyond that plastic face.it's horribly tiring and draining.i guess it takes energy on my part as well to pretend that everything is what it seems and everybody loves everybody else and everything is all jolly and good,as well as act unaffected and happy behind that mask.i do admit that i have good times in school with friends and all,yet slowly but surely,the strain is going to overtake everything i ever loved in this school.yet,i don't really wanna leave where i'm already rooted.i don't wanna leave the people,i don't wanna leave o5ao2,i don't wanna leave the familarity.but i think the day will come when i will want to leave and when school will become draggy and hateful.but i pray that day won't ever come.
and steph,you're not irritating,shallow or an introvert.just to let you know again. :)
